Self-analysis: can't lead because can't delegate... rather than bother others to do things i just do it myself. also can't lead because natural avoidance of responsibility... when i was young in soccer i would deliberately run actively to positions where defenders were between me and the ball so it wouldnt come to me. these days i position myself to receive the ball but i suck now so people wont pass to me haha shouldnt have avoided the challenges and feared failure when i was young, i would be so much better now if i hadnt but nothing i can do about that but practice harder. i guess i still revert to this avoidance in other areas. i wonder how i got to be like this, no blaming father or others.

improvements through broken window theory.

i really like the band 'the hoof and the heel'
so peaceful and mellow

someone left the website 'documentary heaven' open on my tabs in my chrome, thanks~! this site looks interesting and awesome, i think im going to end up investing lots of time here.

lets play a game, whos belly is it?

one of the better burgers ive had during national burger month

baked potato salad with bacon bits...genius

3 lb cinnamon roll at lulus cafe in san antonio, good memories

national hamburger month

may is national hamburger month
i said i would eat 10 burgers this month to celebrate
so far ive eaten 7, tonight i ate a burger, it almost killed me
it likely shortened my life by a good week or so

UHI

the temperature discrepancy was back today but not as pronounced as usual...draw what conclusions u will from that

anyone tried almond joy and york pieces? really good, dont think the hersheys dark chocolate would be worth it so never tried it but york definitely is. im so addicted it's not even funny.

tight race in la liga thrilling victories today for both top teams real really making a strong statement that they deserve the title with a 5-1 victory closing the goal differential gap

3 series at 3-0 now and one at 2-1 in the second round?? man early exits for all these teams not fun... utah really had a shot tonight, at least boston better keep that series close and exciting.

good to finally see some excitement in bible study, rather than everyone checking their phones for time and getting excited about post bs activities........hope the excitement gets contagious even if it is only from a couple

why am i still awake??? i didnt feel the significant drop in temperature as i drove home today... this worries me the urban sprawl is expanding quickly!

NDOP

In a little over an hour, it will be national day of prayer...
the theme being from Nahum 1:7 "The LORD is good, a refuge in times of trouble. He cares for those who trust in him."


At wednesday service today a deacon brought up the passage of 2 Chronicles 7:13-14
"When I shut up the heavens so that there is no rain, or command locusts to devour the land or send a plague among my people, 14 if my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land."
He brought up some issues that occupy our nation, gay rights, abortion, wall st corruption, pollution, and on and on... then he poignantly pointed out that this passage doesnt call for people involved in these issues to repent... this passage calls out to each and everyone of us as God's people to repent, humble ourselves and turn from our wicked ways and He will deliver our nation, our land. If I seek God in prayer and cry out to Him, He will forgive my sins and heal this land. It kind of makes me wonder if ghandi took the idea from this passage when he said "be the change you want to see in the world"


so who will kneel with me and praise God and repent of our sins?

empyrean

There's this very clearly distinguished border when im driving home with my windows open... the moment i pass this border the temperature drops noticeably, i often wonder if this is caused by the urban heat island effect.

on repeat in the car stereo:
broken social scene
the ting tings
portugal, the man
the xx

haha cooky